Why is it I seem to think things through in a kind of weird way! Apparently that is? Whenever I think about things I have, again apparently, a unique way of doing it and when explaining what I thought, youngest daughter particularly can’t believe My Brain thinks that way! I believe I am quite normal but based on her theory, I am quite the opposite!
For instance, tonight I state I thought about being on a cruise, we have been joking with Mother about her going on one (she can afford it), so I was thinking about it and in fact think I may have had a dream the previous night where I was upset as I thought about being on the cruise and then mysteriously falling from the boat! Wow, not a nice thought, especially if you don’t die before hitting the water or on impact! Floating out there and watching the biggest boat you have ever seen leaving the scene of your fall at, what I expect to be at exaggerated speed, can’t be trip you were dreaming of or reading in the brochures. How could you cope I asked Mother and youngest daughter, stating you would be worrying about being left there to just die, floating and not knowing which way to swim! Or would you have to make the decision to attempt to drown yourself?
Youngest daughter just rolled her eyes and stated, I can’t believe you think about that stuff, no-one else would think like that! I do, and I believe it is the way a majority of ‘normal’ people think each and every day, although!
It made me realise I may not be as optimistic about things as I believe I am? I tend to think a lot about morbid details of potentially ‘bad’, ‘really bad’ stuff happening for all types of reasons.
After my knee injury and followed by the ACL tear I constantly thought about falling but would actually see it happening in my head, I could pretty much see the fall and the aftermath! Body flailing around on the ground, trying to find something to hold onto to get myself back up again – similar sight I would suggest to the re-floating of a boat that has sunk – see now you’re getting it,,,,then the Titanic would come into my head and the most memorable moments in that movie, “Jack, Jack!”, “Rose, Rose!” (being shouted over and over again above the sound of running, gushing water)!! Joking, I did love the movie although oldest grandchild, who was youngest and only grandchild back then did nearly ruin it for me, he had to watch it over and over again (ad nauseam!) – interestingly nothing changed, the boat hit the iceberg and sank, dear Jack didn’t survive, but again – I need you to know I did like the movie, not knocking it in any way 🙂 just was a tad sick of it by the time my grandson had moved onto a new movie to drive me mad with!
Our family seems to have been blessed with good luck and good health, not to put a mocker on it but we have, and sometimes I am led to believe in My Brain it is because I play out a lot of bad things that could happen based on what we are doing or going to do or what activity the kids were doing or are involved in; they are like mini ‘real life’ dramas or comedies in most cases, played out in my head in full.
Scenario 1, eldest daughter rides her horse in the cross-country these are the things that could happen, she forgets which way to go and starts going down a one-way track, the wrong way! Eldest daughter hits a tree or horse shies at the tree, or worse than that they hit an oncoming horse and rider!
Scenario 2 middle daughter runs amok on roller derby rink, skates were serviced before the comp and she cannot stop herself, she takes out the refs and the guy and gal who are there to provide the half time entertainment + she barrels into the kiosk – spilling all the drinks and running over the chips, with grease on her wheels she is out into the car park before running into the back of a parked car!
Scenario 3 eldest son on down hill bike ride in the Canadian mountains – news bulletin, young Aussie downhill bike rider gets more than he expected when yogi and the bear accompany him down the mountain, yogi on the handlebars and bear on the young Aussies knee, he was taken to hospital for minor bite wounds, now even I admit this one is really off the charts for My Brain! but in saying that he does mountain bike ride and yes, he has told me “he takes his life in his own hands”, riding in the mountains with brown bears roaming around!
Scenario 4 youngest daughter whilst studying at Uni and living away from home, is talking to me on the phone when getting home from a late lecture, walks in the door of rented property, its dark and supposedly her room mates aren’t home yet, she talks to me whilst locking up and as she heads up to the stairs someone jumps out of the dark, she screams, I scream and ask her who’s there, she says its someone wanting money, I say put them on the phone and before i know it my voice has dropped an octave or two and I am Liam Neeson in my favourite movie, Taken – I tell them I have a certain set of skills and if you hurt youngest daughter, I will find you and I will kill you! In My Brain, they give the phone back to youngest daughter and leave without hurting her, although in reality they are screaming “your mum is an f*#$%@g weird, crazy woman”, and they’re not staying for the surprise dress up birthday party for room-mate # 2 who wasn’t home yet! Oops, can’t believe they hadn’t seen Taken, who hasn’t seen that movie? As if I was for real, they should have known it was a joke! 🙂
See I can run off track and run amok when my mind really wants to test out some theories but in saying that and for the moral of this story and above paragraph (at least) nothing too sinister or bad has happened and I firmly believe that’s because I thought it all out and am wary and cautious of what could happen, hence I prepare myself and my family for anything to happen and luckily it hasn’t happened! Confused, I am! Yikes!!
I think I will though, keep using my brain this way as it has kept us out of trouble to this point – I will also keep you updated on My Brain and its antics from the past and future….I am sure it will be slightly amusing or at least weird, although I believe there will be a huge number of people who think exactly like me – normally that is 🙂